omg. not again?!

14-17 Dec 2010. It should be the last.

district 10

"I noe I had made u sad n heart broken.. but tt's not wat I wanted.. I think I had finally found out wat I wanted all along.. its not her.. wat I wanted is the lian ai feeling.. n I hope to have it with u.. I started gg out with her cos I was not happy n I wanted to replace u with her even though I noe tt's not possible.. the more unhappy I am the more I wanted to go out with her n the more I made u sad and the cycles continues.. I just hope I can stop this cycle n fall in love n be happy with u again.. will u forgive me?"

It's been a year. The last day of November. Things were made final, and there wasn't gonna be any going back. You are an ex, who won't be a friend.

I've had some bad times, when I kept away the photos and avoided looking at them. When I pretended to be ok when asked, and failing completely with a scrunched up nose, and welled up tears. When I cried in the shower or in bed. But that's all over now, and so no more emo-ing.

I've had good times. Traveling with friends, doing stuff I used to require permission to. Seeing my family more. Being able to regain the joy of spontaneity and freedom. Having more time just to myself, even if just to do nothing.

Looking back, actually the good times are more than the bad. So I'm glad I made the choice. It allowed me to see you, me, and the world more clearly.

Right now I'm waiting for my heart to tell me when is the time and who is the one to to spend the rest of my life with.

I do not hate you, for through this, I know what strong stuff I'm made of, and how I deserve someone better.
I loved you very much once. You know it's your loss, not mine.
My answer is and will always be no.

不屑纪念。现在的我，没有你，过的很好。

no matter what..

We are all beholden to our parents. No matter how hopeless or useless we may feel, it should never be to take our own life. Haiz so young so 可惜。The best way of showing filial piety is to be healthy and good.

And on a separate note, i wonder. If the love of my life is to live to a hundred, would I hope to live to a hundred minus one day, so that I don't have to suffer the pain of losing him? Or would I hope to live to a hundred and one, so that he doesn't have to face the pain of losing me?
***but this is such a lame question to ponder. I should sleep.

when it's monday

when it's monday...
the bosses aren't in, and i've attended meetings last friday,
there's always a lot to do, being chased by customers for stuff they all say it's urgent. somehow, it's also inevitable that i have to be the sai gang warrior + messenger + secretary to send emails and take calls.

and later on there's a sad event to attend.

how can i don't blue? =(

lazy sunday

watching korean show personal taste. lee min-ho very handsome, but if all love stories have to involve so many people and be so complicated, very seh. haha and yet, of course, it'll be too childish and silly to think that the course of love runs smooth.

did massage yesterday at Spa Infinity. till now i'm still sore, think my neck and shoulders are too tense. they tried to get us to sign package, but 24 sessions for 1600+ is not something i think i want to have in my list of responsibilities. and anyway, i don't like the location, plus the hidden cost of the aromatherapy.

been nua-ing at home, but i managed to buy the xmas gift that is meant for exchange with the girls. although i think only the wrapper is red. hahaha wonder what the girls want for the chalet? i have to go down on 11th after work to place orders. www.melvados.com but the xmas menu isnt out yet!

and i bought my lisbeth salander box set! yay!

something lame:

the things you dunno

你不知道，几时的我是想依赖，但碍于面子的口是心非。
你不知道，几时的我是害怕，所以卖关子。
你不知道，几时的我是希望被甜蜜的浪漫惊喜击败。

其实你不明白，理所当然。
但是，我偏偏就是希望你知道。

harry potter part 1

Managed to catch the 2.30pm show even though we reached at 2pm. and the 4th row seats were not bad. plus i finally tried peppermint mocha. somehow i think dark mocha tastes nicer, but of course, they're both damn sweet. eileen's one-for-one makes coffee+movie less than $8. haha yayness!

The show was good, slightly different from the book, but I guess it makes the flow easier. There are many questions, but it seems the time's not right yet to ask. So learn to bide one's time, and maybe in the end, the answers will just reveal themselves. Eagerly awaiting the finale!

Time to sleep for the dreaded 5.5 day week ahead. boohooo

oh...

原来每个人都在密谋，几时丢信。
而比较有勇气的人， 已经丢了。

意想不到。咋舌。

doc!

I'm depressed at the thought of working tomorrow, can I get a letter stating that the I should avoid work till Xmas?

:( :'( :( :'( :( :'( :( :'(

2 days of ' work'

really, i think i've probably seen all kinds of boarding passes that can be issued.

one hour flight, which landed at KL LCCT, the lousier counterpart of KLIA. which essentially is meant for cargo. meaning: it sux.

saw this in the cab, lmao! super tempted to post this on FB and tag 2 people, but i shan't. LOL

45min cab journey to Sunway Lagoon Pyramid Tower. cab driver got lost, walked very far to hotel. such a big building, cannot see mehz?


hotel was good, big and comfy beds. but connecting rooms. what for??


oh, no time! so quick lunch, then down to meet customers. angmoh name: Esquire Restaurant, translated into Chinese, it sounds funny.

customer: 1
us: 2
customer's customers: 9
customer's customers (based in thailand): 6.
totally lost on strength. -_-

entire duration of conference call meeting: satu jam. and i must take all the minutes, although us 2 didnt say a single word.

end, return to hotel. rot, while their emails were checked. RM58 for 24hours internet per room. if you use the business centre, that will be RM1 for every minute, and RM2 for every page you print, thank you very much. tok lor!!!

dinner with customer's customer 1 at teochew restaurant. practising my skill of 脸笑肉不笑。
fish soup was nice, but you get better quality at a cheaper price at block 137 tampines street 11. LOL
individual pots of pu'er makes one sleepy.

8 beers split among 4 people. the entire bar is full of blacks, which is fine, until one walks in with a bloody shirt. but besides some gasps, it's all normal.

the only part I participated in this morning was probably only breakfast.
dimsum was no good :( i need non-halal genuine ones.

they did shopping, i saw nothing. so i came back with all i brought.

lunch at marrybrown, KFC competitor. something wrong with us la. departure breakfast on Mon was also KFC competitor (Texan Chicken)


Airasia encourages you to check in online, at the kiosks, or using mobile. so please note, their counters are not for checking your documents. your documents must be checked at this particular place. look out for big huge signboard at ulu corner, near boarding gate.

the louya KLCC. even HCM airport didn't seat the waiting passengers next to the tarmac. and you have to walk damn far to get to the plane.

is it any wonder i don't wanna go again? complete waste of time. no fun at all. and it seems there's no way i can buy duty free from msia. damn damn damn.

random: aiming for starbucks peppermint mocha tomorrow! stupid jeff chang carena lau song.!i like sleeping in hotels, so quiet and snuggly!

wonders...

why am i not excited about having 2 days off from work? even though it's to 陪客, but at least i'm not stuck in the office, right?

is there any handsome hot young thing at customer office? hahaha but even if there is, bound to be a malaysian, then how to Long Distance Relationship?

LOL, going crazy.

cheesecake baking was successful, and the cheesecakes are nice!!! YUMMY!

busy week ahead..

sunday (since it's past midnight, it's today) - cheesecake baking workshop 2pm - 5pm
monday 0855am Air Asia flight to KLCC airport
tuesday 1540pm Air Asia flight from KLCC, and hopefully there'll be some shopping thrown in, and there's no need to return to the office. but i can only cross my fingers on both counts.
wed is public holiday - and i'm planning to sleep in, wash and iron my clothes maybe.
thu will be CDS day, god knows how long we've not been back to AHS for activities.
fri is gen day. the crazy ger is planning a party!
sat and sun, tentatively free, but i think i need to catch up on some gossip.

the first time you can say it's a mistake.
the second time, you learn to look before you leap.
the third time, well, if there's a third time, i can only say it's dumb.

兴奋，期待是一回事，但也要理智吧。
没说清楚，很好玩，可以继续暧昧猜测。但没说清楚，也代表没有誓言，不一定认真。
自己看着办吧。

是不是觉得我又语带双关呢？哈哈

haunted

No, not by you or any ghosts.

Even when I declared I'm not collecting any more passport chop, they are still coming after me.
Zero purpose trip so I think its gonna be a slack Mon n Tue.

Cheesecake baking on Sun, now on way to dimsum! Yay, such a good life, if only there's no work.

dun wanna work

for the umpteenth time this work, i repeat - i dun feel like working!

girls outing yesterday was so long overdue, i've not seen weeinn in months!!! fun to hear her story of being proposed. makes me realise that we're really not teenagers anymore, but adults. and for her, she's starting a new phase of life soon! congrats!

maybe in time we will hear funny stories of squatting proposals! LOl hilarious =p

roar

First I get asked to speak in Chinese to make a reservation at Tampopo.
Then, I am pissed off by ignorant service at paragon Thai express.
What's with the service standard in Singapore?

the feeling of being back is weird..

like i lost part of my soul somewhere.

long weekend

wonder when will i get another long weekend like this? every single cell in my body doesnt want to work tomorrow! =(

ho chi minh city 3d2n with evan was a good getaway. we did our nails, ate some authentic Vietnamese food, visited the Mekong delta, and also learnt some history on the Cu Chi tunnel trail. Could have explored more I think, but for a start, it was good enough =)



and then there doesn't seem to be any more travel plans for the rest of this year, so I think I'm stuck in Singapore, with more time to meet those people I haven't got time to. haha thanks for bearing with my flying! LOL

next thing to look forward is mahjong, and then the xmas celebrations! yay! but its a month away. grr

agrees that just the way you are is great.

good to be home

Think this is the first trip this year when I seriously didn't do any shopping for myself.
Purely sightseeing, which wasn't bad. Except its quite tiring..

Always glad to be back from my travels. No airport will win Changi, no passport better than Singapore's and no place better than home!

Tomorrow! Yay! But what shall I do in the day?

LOL

2 offers for new job liao. when i can only leave in march. MAD.

more than 2 people offering to help me introduce guys, even MADDER.

hahaha, of to vietnam ho chi minh in a while! YAY!

and then when i'm back, there's gonna be drinks and gossip session. plus i can start writing letters to a pen pal! hahaha

all so unusual, so outta the blue.

i like my life now, except the work part. -_-

update

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